On a message board yesterday, I expressed my non-understanding of how a mother could sell her own child into prostitution. This statement came after hearing that authorities found the body of 5-year-old Shaniya Davis in North Carolina. Shortly before, police charged Shaniya’s mother with selling Shaniya into prostitution to the man who allegedly murdered her.
A woman on the message board said, “You must still be young … as you age, you will learn, PEOPLE ARE EVIL. (not all people, but MANY PEOPLE!)”
All I can say is that I don’t ever want to be old enough to understand how or why a person would do such a thing. I am well aware of evil in the world. I learned history in school, and continue to study it because, well, I’m a bit of a nerd that way. But to understand it? Never.
I will never understand how a mother could sell her child to a man for sex. I will never understand how a person could murder another person in cold blood (in self-defense or defense of others, yes; in cold blood, no). I will never understand torturing a person or animal for pure pleasure or the Holocaust or the Killing Fields of Cambodia. Never. I don’t want to. I don’t want to get into the minds of those people and see what they see or feel what they feel.
I like my humanity. I like my ability to sympathize and empathize. Maybe those things open me up to hurt, but the world would be a much worse place without people like me in it.
So if getting older means I will come to understand these things, then I don’t want any part of it. I’d rather lay down now on the proverbial sword than reach that place in my life.
Luckily, I don’t think I ever will, no matter if I live a million years.