I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world, just a lie you’ve got to rise above. – John Mayer
Yesterday, I decided to play music I hadn’t listened to in a while and sit in my living room and read. The very last CD I put on before leaving for an evening out was John Mayer’s Room for Squares and that lyric is in the very first song on that CD.
I always loved that song. That line spoke to me the first time I ever heard it. But it’s been a while. The words floated on a cloud into my mind like an old friend come to visit after years away.
My Western Zodiac sign is Capricorn, an Earth sign. The older I get, the more I recognize myself in the description of this particular sign. I’m obsessively on time. I need to know what’s going on and don’t deal well with lack of planning on the part of others. I probably drive a lot of people crazy – especially the abundant number of Geminis who surround me.
But my Chinese sign is the Dragon. It’s the only mythological creature in the Chinese Zodiac. To me, that sign defines me even more than the Western one, but the two are always at odds with each other. I want terribly to be able to just let go and let my head float about in the atmosphere without a single thought for responsibility and logic. But I remain mostly grounded by my Earth sign. I think that inhibits my creativity and I’m trying to teach myself to stop allowing it to do so.
So, hearing that lyric yesterday was almost fortuitous, since I have spent the last two weeks making sure I create something new every day. After years and years of nothingness, I am finding something every day to write about here. And the thought of achieving my ultimate goal and freeing myself of the shackles of a 9-5 job just to pay the bills seems more and more of a possibility.
I want to make the real world a lie in my life. I want to rise above it.
And I believe, finally, that I will.